The mirror, A NECESSARY EVIL!!!

Have you ever had one of those days, the kind when you look in the mirror and wish you hadn't? I have them far too often.  Whether it is something about my health or just me. I have really been feeling too tired.  Not just tired, I can barely stay awake during the day and I therefore struggle to enjoy the way I appear in the mirror.   I fight all day long to have the kind of energy needed to perform my motherly, babysitting, and maid services each day.

How do you figure out what is making the mirror seem so un-appealing?  I hate when I hear people say if you are living as you should you won't get down on yourself.  It makes me wonder if those people ever get into a rut...do they honestly love themselves for who they are all the time?  I don't believe it's out of reach, but I believe it's hard to get to a point in life when you feel that way.  We all have struggles with our personal self, otherwise people wouldn't stress over exercise, makeup, hair, etc

Well my mirror is anything but wonderful.  It doesn't always show me that I have outer beauty and it has no way of showing the inner beauty.  I guess for me the hard part is when I feel I don't measure up to my ideal, then I don't see what I can offer.  Does each mirror show our individual worth?  Can we be worth more than the perfect looking individuals the world shows us?  Yes most definitely....when we take the time to gain a relationship with our father in heaven, we can see more of what we have to offer.  We can all choose to love what we see, and make little changes where we fill need help.  We can still exercise, put makeup on, do our hair, but we can know that we are beautiful because someone loved us enough to create something amazing.

Today as I looked in the mirror, I saw a mother who resembled the way I felt: tired, ugly, fat, unappreciated, unloved, the list goes on for forever.  It was then that I realized the mirror is not my friend, and I didn't want to take any extra amounts of time in front of it.  Just as those thoughts entered I gazed over to my son and wonderful girl I babysit and they both smiled and wanted a hug.  Each child wanted a kiss on the cheek and would not let go.  I felt guilty for all those negative thoughts I had come to my mind as I looked in the mirror. I knew the mirror didn't show both sides of me but those that love me see I am beautiful, maybe not on a physical sense but one that says I am worth a hug.

If every one of us would look through our childhood eyes, we would see such a better view.  We wouldn't see the imperfections we hold, we wouldn't notice other imperfections either, we would love unconditionally, and forgive a lot easier. The mirror doesn't show all of our beauty, it only shows us what we think about our physical self.  Is it enough to just see the outer beauty, no.  We need to look within, and just be grateful for all that we are.

The mirror is definitely an evil necessity, it shows the good and the bad, but without it we would never be able to see all the beauty we have to offer.  Today, I am looking in the mirror with a different perspective, I am going to look for the good instead of the bad.  Today I am finding Joy by looking in the mirror.