HOPE

After months of trying times with my heart I have felt myself slip in and out of a dark hole.  Not depression but close to it.  Let's face it after one bad thing happening after another and bad news coming from so many things it's hard to always be on the positive end of it.  I have felt so alone with this until a few weeks ago when my dad suffered his massive heart attack.  I now see him going through so many similar things as me and some far worse.  It is so hard not being able to physically take charge of and take care of everything.  I have never felt so helpless, it isn't helplessness for myself but for the fact I want to help someone else.

This makes me think of my Savior.  He suffered so many things for each of us and at times must feel helpless as he watches us constantly turn to something or someone else to help us out of our trial.  He loves us unconditionally and gave his life for us, all because of love.  He knows us all more than we probably know ourselves and has already taken all that we have been through on.  It makes me wonder why it is human nature to walk away from the freedom he offers us.

I have never been perfect and have never claimed to be.  I do my best like all of you, and at times doing my best isn't always the right thing.  I have felt those awful burdens associated with the weight of sin, the loneliness, the pains both physical and spiritual, and although I trust the Lord to take them from me I struggle with turning them completely over to him.  I am capable of letting go and finding Hope in the darkness.  He is the light that can take us out of the shadows and into a better place.  He is the only person who can bring truth to our souls.  He is our constant cheerleader who sits not in the limelight but right beside us, waiting to carry us when needed. 

Hope is always here! He will never abandon us because through him there is always a chance.  A chance to overcome an addiction, sin, depression, loneliness, pain both physical and spiritual, financial struggles, you name it he will always give us Hope.  I may not have it all together and I have struggled so much to overcome trials but he has been there to lift me when I could no longer take a step forward.  He has lifted me when I was stuck in a world of self pity when he showed me another who as in more need than me.  He comforts me daily when I feel I can no longer go on, he is my Savior, my best friend and my redeemer!  He has given me light today when I needed it and I will always look to him for strength.  Thanks to his mercy I may be given a chance to become better and live a full life.  I owe him all that I have and I want the world to know I know he is there for each of us, he is my HOPE!