What's your passion?

Have you ever stopped to think about your passion in life? I have noticed as I get older there are few and far between times when I can look back and notice I was really trying for the passion I have in life.  I think it depends merely on our priorities in life.  When we are in high school we focus on being the smartest in school, the best athlete, the best musician, the best cheerleader or dancer, etc etc...our thoughts are on more of a personal level, and this way of life continues until we marry.

When you marry you take on another individual's  passion for life, along with your own and try to find balance between them.  It changes once again when you start a family.  You start focusing more on your children and helping them find their passion for life.  We still strive to be our best, but our goals get rearranged to provide the best way of life for our family.

As a mother, I have forgotten that as I set my own goals in life I must strive for them now.  I can't put off myself or I will struggle later in life, when I am once again more alone.  I have decided to get myself back in school.  I want to finish my degree and get a job where I can be home for kids but also  have a personal life.  I want to show my kids how important an education is in life, and how important it is to always work for the things I want in life...but along the same sense I want my kids to see that being their mother is more important than $$$.  I could go a life without any extras, if I helped create hardworking children and family loving parents.

My passion in life has changed so much since I met my husband, but my main goals in life have always stayed the same.  The goals that have remained the same are my spiritual goals.  The only constant in my life is my religion and the testimony I have of my Savior.  Does this mean this is my passion for life? Does it make it any easier to try to live a perfect life?  It means that it is a passion I deem most worthy, but technique lily not the only one.   Unfortunately feeling this way doesn't mean I won't go through trials and struggles.  I will still have to find my way through life.  I will still have to struggle to keep that passion for life alive.  I will have to find ways to focus on what means the most, and I will have to strive to have a relationship with my Savior.  I want an eternal family, and in order to have that, I must let go of the natural man and take hold of something remarkable.  Something I have not physically seen, but feel as I envision an eternity with my companion and children.

Today passion for life will take on a whole new meaning...it won't be what I can accomplish and be the best at, it will be if I am striving for my passion in life a little more each day....if I can find Joy in the fact that although I know where I want to be headed, I know I will lose my way and can still pick myself off, brush it off and try even harder.